The voices were crying out to me this week on You Tube and by email, "I don't know what to do." Frantic, Scared voices with no idea how these drugs they had been prescribed were affecting them. I had a woman whose husband had been on Klonopin and Xanax for twenty five years that did a rapid withdrawal, and the doctor didn't tell him about a possible cross tolerance issue with Lunesta. He jumped off too quickly and was now suffering excruciating symptoms from rapid withdrawal from both drugs. This was only one of many calls with the same story. Their doctor hadn't told them what the drug could do, or how they needed to taper slowly. Now they are paying the price, and the medical community isn't being accountable for these people. How many more lives will have to be torn apart by these drugs?
How is it possible that we have built such a dynasty of chemical poisons we call medicine? The more people we help, the more I wonder how all of this crept up on us in what appeared to be a blink of the eye. I have been and continue to be amazed how many people are being so impacted by this medical system. What are our options for a well informed system of healthcare as long as medicine continues to be so market driven?
Every time I ask my self these questions, it always comes back to one answer. Patient self awareness and accountability. We have to take our own health back by paying attention to what we put in our mouths. That means less pills and more pure food. More exercise and less computer time. More interaction and less isolation. How do we ever encourage healthy habits in a population of quick fix solutions?
I am hoping that those of us who have suffered through at least one withdrawal from these wicked concoctions will somehow become the cornerstone of information we need to educate others of the dangers of "wanting it my way right away." I am hopeful, but I also know that it is human nature to wait until the eleventh hour when our backs are up against the wall, and where we are forced into a situation that we have to make a change. My guess is we are getting there, but I know from my own experience that until things got really bad, and I was so sick that I had no other choice but to stop and get off these drugs, that I made real changes in my life.
This meant no more short cuts to doing anything in my life from career to my deep spiritual commitment. One day at a time brought with it a whole new meaning when it was happening to me. As I opened to the experience of being very present with my pain, it allowed me to quit resisting the experience and just breath into it. I have spoken to others who have come out of withdrawal that have had a very similar transformation and who feel they have somehow evolved in some way spiritually. Perhaps this whole drug revolution is really about an awakening for millions of people that are going through this? When you are in acute withdrawal there really isn't much you can do accept breath and be with it. Otherwise I think the experience can possibly just shred you to pieces, and I know it does for many people that commit suicide due to the withdrawal being so unbearable.
Even after the withdrawal, I find a lot of people are having to spend a lot of time alone because of the heightened sensitivity. They have nothing to do like myself, but to venture into meditation, yoga and just doing a lot of really healthy things to heal both physically, mentally and spiritually. If in fact the figures are correct, and there actually are millions of people going through this kind of hell to withdraw from these drugs, then perhaps there is some sort of collective consciousness that is there to help enlighten a certain percentage of the population.
For myself this also meant a lot less trips to the doctor. I got away from the mental health system all together. As a result, I feel much more at peace and must less fearful. As for my regular primary care doctor, I just make a once a year journey to them for hormone testing and basic labs since my thyroid function was pretty messed up from these drugs. I have opted to try and correct that with diet and supplements due to still being too sensitive to take thyroid medication. I do all of my own research when it comes to my health, and then I run everything by my P.A. for feedback. It has been wonderfully liberating to not be attached to this medical system the way I had been during those years of benzos. This is where it has to start. We have to stop giving all of your power away to this huge system with all its drugs and doctors.
Could this be some sort of spiritual shift that is forcing many of us inward to find order out of chaos? Is this a message to the rest of the world to manage their lives differently without the use of all these drugs? I know I came through it with some sort of a profound change in my view of the world. I felt like I needed to write about these experiences to help others, and to educate the people that are involved with actually prescribing these drugs. I know I'm ready for a change in this world, and I think my voice is one of many that feel very much the same way.